an old but wonderful sabrina ward harrison:

?Thickets of Undigested Experiences?.

(I found this to be the best description of this past year.
I came across the line last night in my trusted old favorite
Journal of a Solitude by May Sarton.)
.

what has your year been like?

Life has been so tangled and unknown,
and sometimes quite ?unfelt?..(if that could make any sense....)
so much change and uncertainty and slivers of thrill
and vast deserts of lonely not knowing
trying to wish and hope ..
.for our country.
...for Kerry.
and what about this hard to place letdown?!

...and then,
just woven into all of it has
been all the RUSHING,
scrambling...!!
not sure towards where?

..to stay above water?
or maybe just avoiding having to stand
quietly still in the the murky knee high lake of how life feels right now.

my 20?s have swooshed by..and I wish I?d danced more, played more, smooched more,
and sat in that great old afternoon sun longer..

that?s the plan for this year.

I wanna go to:
Australia, Spain, Mexico
and back to the cottage...

So this is me right now.
probably pretty unclear,
it?s just what came out..

Since we are not just sitting
side by side
and able to say it with eyes
and sideways glances...
it will come just like so.

Cat Power ?covers? album
is playing.
It?s Friday, 5pm
and the
blue sky
start
of night.