perfect saturday.

its the "oh. im not the only one. yes." share moment. its that second when i realize someone else has put my words into a sentence. its a sharing thing. its realizing someone else has the same secret loves. and they were brave enough to show you for a minute. thats what it is, its a sharing thing.

these cass bird secrets. we love a lot of the same. i know that feeling. the grass behind my ears and leaning back onto the handlebars of a boy who i adore. i know those secrets too. and thats the oh moment i love.

today, as clare would say, is a smileday.

im feeling direct.
yesterday i looked through undealtwith or unpeeled,

or unsomething photos of last year.

i think i looked at them for the first time.

its kind of like a warp.
sometimes its best to look back once you are long gone i think.

[i've been sitting on my bed for a long time eating cheerios]

I have flashlights in my life.
These alive secrets.
where i can whisper
"see guys" to all the me's that
get sad and stop hoping for
alive live live.

this fall is those. and im in love.
not with anyone.
with time.
falling in time is my favorite love.
and leads always to my best and most revisited
memories.

that two falls ago thing
is happening where my
grown up lists
[resumes, jobs, portfolios,
should-dos, applications,
lectures, volunteer shifts]
those are all falling away
for morning journals
and 7AM wholefoods lines
and pizza on the grill and jazz
and new friends in my places.

i think this sounds nice today:

the recipient of most of my love:

for sure the 1019A MVPs:

i can hear owen sweeping. perfect time to start the day.

i hope this time doesn't end, im in love.